At the Year...Waiting for the Day

More ups than down
    Climbing one foot hold
                   one hand hold
                            at a time
There has been no bag of tricks
                instead
                           a box of tools
This time there was forethought
       This time there were plans for survival
                                       plans for achieving
                                       an overwhelming desire
                                            to continue on this journey
Together setting anchors
                attaching lines
                    creating support
      keeping a vigilant eye out for problem spots
                   maneuvering around and up and over dangers
This is our journey
   we are together
        hand in hand
           heart for heart
                 making our way
         to our year and a day

I Think...I Believe...I Know

I think:
words hold meaning
words give hope
words make a difference
words cause a forced perspective
words provide clarity

I believe:
every person you care for should hear you tell them how you feel (don't assume they realize the depths of        
                                                                  your feelings for them or how their existence impacts your life)
every emotion you bury inside only helps to dig you a deeper emotional grave

every moment should be used to show and to tell those around you how you really feel

every day is a day to live life the way you want to live it

every time you let a moment pass by without truly living your own life is a time that can not be lived

I know:
the past cannot be changed
the present lays the foundation for the future
the future is what you make it by being present in the present

hold...give...make...cause...provide
person...emotion...moment...day...time
past...present...future

Conclusion:
Living life in the present, acknowledging the now and all the emotions and events being experienced, allows hope for a future and allows happiness in the moment.
The personal meanings behind words can change over time, understanding the change and accepting the change, allows for the use of those words in the present.
I am grateful for all the blessings in my life and the chance to continue to change and live and learn to be the me that is full of possibility and potential and loved by those that share my life.

Long way home

Long way home
   Traveling on hands and knees
        Every day is please...please...please
                                        And thank you
I want to be with you
   Told not to dwell on the past
                         But every turn
                               Brings back a sin...a wrong
                               All the things I've done
Reminding me of the pain
      And hurt I've wrung
                     From you--I've put you through

      What am I to do
    When all I want to
                  Say is...I love you

I'm on my feet
        Ready to meet
             Each moment of each day
        I'm on my way
        My way home
              I apologize with every breath
              I know the past can't be undone
                         Things said can't be taken back
                                              Can't be unheard

What am I to do
   When all I want to do
         Is stay with you

The maze of madness
       The labyrinth full of
              Closed doors and dead ends
                   Navigating my way home
I've traveled on hands and knees
                            I'm on my feet
            Step by step
I move closer to you
                         closer to home

What am I to do
   When all I want from you
               Is to hear you say
                                     I love you

Actions speak louder than words
                             this I've heard
             But they don't take the place
                 Of how my heart will race
              When you speak to me
                When you use the key
                              And say those three
                                      Words...words...words

Song from the Heart

On this day
   Let me say
I am here in the present
                in the present
Being with you
          through and through
     When I feel this way
      It is here    I     want to stay

Those words
    Those phrases
        The day-to-day
     They sound cliche
These words
    These phrases
        I'm here to say

I love you     I love you
     I love you this day
     I love you and I'm   here   to   stay
                                    here   to   stay

The past is the past
   No changing what was
Living in the now
              the now
     because     because
Being with you
          fills me up
                makes me smile
                     wanna go that extra mile
Done living in the past
   I'm living in the now
         I'm learning how
               I'm letting go
         Of those memories whoo...oo...oo
                       I'm living in the now
          this is how

I love you     I love you
     I love you this day
     I love you and I'm here    to   stay
                                  here   to   stay
                  to   stay          to stay

I love you     I love you
     I love you this day
                     this day     this      day

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2013

Beginnings and endings

                           Wondering and wandering

Each day is not "Groundhogs Day"

     Each day is a new day

          Each day is not a "do-over"

     Each day is a day to "keep moving forward"

Each day, every day, any day is a day to explore life

     delve into the unknown

           make it a day different than the rest

Believe that you are in charge of your life 

                                                      that you create your own reality

                                      how you choose to view the world

                           limits how you choose to view who you are